So, I've been doing a lot of thinking this year. Yes, I meant year...as in almost 11 months now. My brain is constantly running 880, and it truly is in constant motion. I do a lot of deep thinking, listening to my instincts, searching for my own path, striving to better myself, learn something new every single day, be a decent wife/mom/friend - although many times I'm sure I fail miserably. Each and every day, I tend to be my own biggest critic. I don't trust easily and tend to not believe anything that I haven't seen or heard myself. While I do love who I am becoming, I have had a lot of hurt along the way, and that usually leads to it coming out as anger.
Anyway, I have been contemplating so many different blogs over the months. I am not a person that is comfortable with live videos, they make me too nervous. So, writing is my thing. I love to talk but life today is so busy that most don't take time to actually slow down long enough to talk. I hear so many times...just text me or send me a message. I truly suck at doing both those. I'm not a fan of talking on the phone, but it's better than miscommunicating through text or messages. I'd rather sit down with a cup of coffee and truly visit. I can't promise to stay on one subject, since I tend to have a lot of "squirrel" moments, but I believe in the importance of face-to-face conversations. As I'm sure many of you have figured out from my coffee chats...conversations would be solving the problems of the world in every conversation! So, as I have written many topics in my journals, and written on a few, I thought I would just write a coffee chat to attempt to quiet the chaos spinning in my head even if just for a bit.
Here we are, at the end of October. In the world today, we have seen so many unexplained things happen, so many things that don't make sense, and for anyone that can sense the energy vibes...it's bad! So, just the facts from my area of the world: Gas went from $1.39 to $3.09 in 10 months, some grocery store shelves are bare but not extreme, there are job openings everywhere so not being employed is unacceptable, many people are so busy just trying to get by that they don't have the energy or time to try to understand why most of the federal buildings in DC have been closed since January. We can't stop working our tails off long enough to focus on the constant infringements on our rights. We are less than 9 weeks from the start of the new year, which around here means Halloween, Thanksgiving, Tax Bills, Christmas...not to mention the rising utility costs, rising fuel costs, rising livestock feed cost, and rising food costs. We are seeing the draconian lockdowns globally, and wondering why the citizens of those countries are accepting that. We are being told that the illness is killing a lot of people, but our border is being left wide open and allowing people to walk through without all the requirements the Americans are having forced on us. That doesn't even touch the Afghans that are being forced into every state without being checked for illnesses, let alone their backgrounds. We have a massive debt owed by our government, that is being allowed to increase while inflation is on a steep incline, and the value of our money is on a rapid decline to nothing. The stock market is being shown to be artificially upheld with the constant insider trading by not only our elected officials, but by the federal reserve board and corporations alike. They can just stop trading whenever they like? Sounds like a ponzi scheme to me. Did you know that Australia, the country, is traded on the NYSE? I didn't until today. How can you trade a country? What about this deal with Alec Baldwin? So, he randomly picks up a prop, that is never loaded with more than blanks, yet it is loaded. Shoots a lady, who happens to be married to a lawyer who is defending Michael Sussman(who was recently indicted), who all worked for the same law firm that represented HRC and the CF...who ultimately was about to release a movie that was going to bring to light child trafficking, in which child porn was alleged found on Baldwin's computer, and I'm supposed to believe this is all a giant coincidence? I don't think so George! Oh well, just more conspiracy's I suppose. We wouldn't want ANYONE to actually tell the truth now, would we?! Ok, so to me it's obvious that there is some pretty wild and wacky stuff happening.
Anywho, my life is busy but not insane. It seems like a circus to me, until I hear others talk about their lives. Then I realize how truly blessed I am...even though I still complain, hey...I'm human! We have a lot that goes on here, and I have a lot on my plate that most don't think about when they ask what I did or didn't do daily. I'm a thinker, an observer, I over analyze EVERYTHING, I have lists for everything, I over prepare, over think, and usually over "feel." One thing I am proud of: I always try to do my best. If I can't give my all, I'm not giving anything. Going into anything half-cocked is a waste of time and energy. I love to celebrate. My family will tell you, Christmas around here makes Santa's workshop look pale in comparison. I love to make each of my family feel important for their birthday. I always try to give them the time they need, when they want to talk or vent...although I'm not real good when the venting goes on forever. I try to be supportive. I remember one of my favorite teachers in high school, a lesson he taught was for a self-esteem class. He always said, "be who you needed when you were younger." That has ALWAYS stuck with me. Unfortunately, I tend to give so much that I forget to refill my own needs. So, I'm constantly trying to pour from an empty cup. As I started out, I am truly blessed with everything I need and most of what I want. I'm not a materialistic person, so things are just that. The most important things in my life, aren't things at all, but ARE those I love! Whether it be my husband, my kids, our extended families, or our fur babies...they are my world. That's not to say that they are sometimes my stress too.
I'm a holiday person. I'm not sure the correct term for that. I despise Halloween but love Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. For years, I would start my Christmas countdowns months early. It usually resulted in lots of negative comments, but it never bothered me. You see, I am not looking forward to gifts. That is not a priority to me. Thanksgiving and Christmas, especially, are times of gatherings with family and friends. Opening our home and "extending" our table. We don't have a lot, but this time of year always seems to bring out miracles and kindness. It seems that during this time, people are more connected than not. Our gatherings usually begin with Thanksgiving. I love the traditions we have. I usually start putting my Christmas decor up the 1st of November(it takes 2-3 weeks to get it all done). That allows us that beauty to see while cook, bake and eat our meal. Then there's a weekend our youngest nephew and niece come up to make cookies, and that is a newer tradition that I love. Then we have a Christmas Open House where we invite neighbors, family, and friends into our home. I spend the week baking all kinds of Christmas favorites, we make soup for everyone for dinner, and we actually visit...the old fashioned way, in person! Then our Christmas eve tradition of opening one gift, which is usually PJ's and a sweet treat. Christmas day is usually me waking up the kids to open their gifts because I'm more excited than they are! Then it's New Year's Eve. We have all kinds of snacky foods, watching the countdown and dancing around to music, or playing games until everyone crashes. It's a busy 2 months, but it fills my heart. If all goes well, this year, I will get to have all my kids home for the holidays. My biological kids and those I've "adopted" too. This includes my future daughter-in-law, from Italy. That means my house will be bursting at the seams, it will be chaotic, and loud, and completely beautiful!
So much has changed the past 19 months. What began so mild turned into something completely out-of-control. It has divided families and friends, it has cost good people to lose their businesses/livelihoods/homes, it has brought division where there should never have been. However, it has also, for some, brought clarity, reconnection, patriotism, and knowledge. It has shown me that my own old fashioned views make more sense now than ever. It has been a reminder that not everyone wants others to succeed, and it has shown true colors when you take off the rose colored glasses. It has brought to light many mental illnesses and the need to lead by example. It has shown hypocrisy in the highest levels and the double standards. However, a big positive I have seen, is watching parents start standing up for their children again. Demanding accountability and learning how to juggle jobs and kids. I am so proud of the parents that have stepped up to demand their children be taught, not indoctrinated, not be muzzled while those in office walk around without one, and demanding to know WHAT their children are learning. These young people deserve to be given the best possible knowledge without being told they should feel guilty for how God made them! When our children are drug into the political circus through illegal mandates, being forced to feel bad for who they are, or suffering through an illegal vaccine....the parents, and all adults for that matter, that allow this should feel ashamed. This has all become a form of emotional/mental abuse! I can tell you, the Nuremburg War Code, is in court again. This is the same code used after WW 2, it was only a handful of Nazi's that were charged and executed...the rest; well, they were the people working in the concentration camps, the doctors, the nurses, the educators... Look it up. There may have been 8 million Jewish people killed, but there hundreds of thousands that worked in those camps that "just did their jobs." Guilty by association. Pay attention. History is repeating itself.
As I said earlier, my mind moves...all. the. time!!! I have thousands of hours in the past 19 months researching, digging and following FOIA reports. What I have learned, has NOT been in any history book I ever studied. In fact, most of what I learned was only half the story at best. The parts not told, well, there's a reason they weren't told. History is never written by a neutral party. It's always written by the "winners." The Nazi's may have lost the battle but they didn't lose the war(Thanks Mel K!). Operation Paperclip, brought a bunch of them here to the U.S. and rebranded them. Their names changed, but their mission continued with help from our 3 letter agencies, the royals and the Vatican. They need the useless wars to keep funding their disgusting habits and behaviors. We have all been duped. It's sad to me that some don't want to dig for themselves, or they'd rather spout negative hate speech to those who do, than actually look into things. All I can say, is that those Khazarians were sure successful when they managed to get people so dismayed they stopped questioning everything, they stopped paying attention to their elected officials behaviors, changed history including the Bible, and continued killing children for their sick and demented sacrifices. You all better get out of the disbelief stage. It's real and when it's exposed...I'd hate to see any of you be blinded sided like I was as I learned.
On that note, I believe I will go spend some time with my critters.
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