Today, my thoughts are racing! I have had a really hard year and I have had nearly every belief shattered and thrown into the wind. Every truth I thought I knew, every belief I held and defended, and every respected person - in my eyes, has been tarnished. The world has become even more chaotic than previous years. Today, I'm going to jump from my soap box into many rabbit holes I have researched, many beliefs that have thrown into question and get these chaotic thoughts out of my head!
Let's start with me. I'm happy to share my downfalls, as I know there there are plenty. I am someone who feels on a deep level. I tend to experience the emotions of others - right along them. Even when they are not my own, I FEEL them. Whenever I am in any situation, I will go through my own thoughts, but I feel the thoughts of others, without even trying or wanting to. I've experienced aches and pains of others, emotions of all kinds, and honestly have learned to recognize the difference from mine to others - for the most part. This is something I have dealt with since I was a child, but has intensified the older I get. I know there are many people that find this weird. That's ok! I find it weird that people can have a mind that only thinks a single thought at a time! Each of us are unique...this is just mine. Whenever life gets chaotic, the world gets restless; I feel it. Like to my bones, FEEL it! I don't understand others NOT being able to show empathy or compassion. I believe that is one of my biggest downfalls - I follow my feelings, not anything else. I pray, I meditate, and I pull within myself a LOT! That is my "super power." In a room full of people, I can withdraw, being their physically does not necessarily mean I am there mentally/emotionally. Many times, I have to do this because there are too many emotions of others for me to be able to function. I don't say all this for any other reason than to point out that we are all unique in our make up.
For many decades, those who were believed to be odd/weird, were ostracized from society. They were made to feel different, odd, mad, crazy, or whatever label you want to put on it. However, now, we are willingly putting labels on everyone. Be it, skin color, religion, sexual orientation, jabbed or not, and it's those in power that have begun segregating us once again. Why?! The majority of people are not biased people. We all just want to live our best lives, make ends meet, be with our families, and celebrate life. Most of us don't care about labels. What matters is whether you are a good person or a bad person. We need to be a united front against those control freaks in power and remind them that we are one people, and that We The People hold ALL the power...not the other way around!
Christmas is just a few days now. Now, our resident-in-chief, has decided to hold meetings with CEO's about the supply chain. Where was he and his administration 3 weeks ago, a month ago, 3 months ago? How is it possible that in 2019 there was a list of variants to the current bio-weapon published, AND it is coinciding with the past nearly 2 years? Why and how was this pandemic predicted and patented in 2018? Why was there a drill that predicted every aspect of this illness before it happened? Why did many of the U.S. elected officials buy stock in the pharmaceutical companies just before the release of the jab? Why are some sitting on BOTH sides of the isle profiting from the rest of us being forced, many against their will, just trying to live our lives. When and Why is our Constitution and Bill Of Rights being walked all over and no one is questioning this?! Why is our medical information any concern to anyone besides our providers and us? When did it become acceptable to bribe, coerce or require ANY medical treatment? When did America become communist? Does no one else see what it happening? Why is no one standing up for themselves, for our freedoms, or for our liberties? Has all the military deaths and wars not meant anything to anyone else?
Since March 2020, I was thrown into an arena that floored me but more importantly, it was the kick in the ass to open my eyes. Many know my family voluntarily locked down for 2 weeks in March 2020. We have several with compromised immune systems in our house, so we decided to do what we could. Shortly before the 2 week mark, my husband was notified that even though he was an "essential" employee, the jobs his company did were all shut down, so he was on indefinite layoff. That layoff lasted until August 2020. I had more time on my hands, since I had a full time extra set of hands. I was online one day and came across a story that claimed our elected officials were installed by those with more power than our government. I didn't believe it, but it gave a lot of examples. With just a minor amount of research, I found information on Google that proved that story correct. Even though there were journalists claiming it was fake/false/conspiracy. From that story, opened a spider web of information that nearly 2 years later...I am STILL finding more information. I stopped using Google in late 2020, when articles were either censored or flagged. I went to Duck Duck Go. So far, that search engine is still somewhat uncensored. Then Youtube began censoring or removing videos...some I had watched and went to re-find, only to find they were no longer there. Well, Bitchute, Rumble turned out to be a place to find those. Then Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and one other that I can't remember, began massive censoring. I am in Facebook jail about every other day...and I honestly don't share anything I can't back up with facts! Over nearly 2 years of research, amounting to over 1000 hours worth, I have found so many lies we have been fed. Sadly, many don't even want to acknowledge. They choose to stick their heads in the sand, rather than face that our own government is at the top of the list in crimes against humanity, war crimes, money laundering, and pedophilia. The last...is the hardest one for me to swallow. When 95% of our politicians are corrupt and compromised by their own behaviors, we need to remove them! Not give them free will to continue their satanic behavior, not encourage them to rape/torture and kill our children. Every single war, every major catastrophe, every single move these freaks makes is to enrich themselves. It's about power, control and money. I grew up believing that money was the root of all evil. Sadly, that is not true. It's the LOVE OF MONEY that is the root of all evil. Don't believe me? Go search for yourself. I will recommend a few video series: The sequel to the Fall of the Cabal, Out of the Shadows, and The Fall of the Cabal.
When I set out nearly 2 years ago, I was actually looking for anything to show me that what I was reading/watching was wrong or made up...turned into some of the most heart wrenching realizations I could have imagined. I would have never imagined the evil that has consumed our planet, not just in the U.S. but worldwide. There are billions of people around the world, that are good people, in every country! We are not that different. These corrupt political parties from the U.S. to the UK, Ghana to China, Venezuela to Gibraltar, Canada to Russia. Our countries, our people should never be subjected to labels by those creating the labels and the crimes. All of our countries have been raped, pillaged, and devastated or destroyed by corrupt, evil people - some countries for centuries!! We continue to be lied to by our media, our government and the very censoring they are forcing on us. Many of medical practitioners have been paid off or bought to force health responses based on kick backs they receive by pushing them. They have been denied the ability to treat with patients with medicines that actually work and instead forced to use experimental proceedures/medicine that is killing people. Our medical industry has become a captured operation, just as our court systems, our governmental offices, and in some cases our police forces. It's been beyond disturbing most of what I have learned. I have had some severe cases of cognitive dissonance, especially when it came to children. I had to push past that, because if I put my head back in the sand, I was doing no justice to those children nor to my heroes...the men and women who fight to defend our Constitution, our military.
You see, after years of working my ass off to do whatever I could to help veterans; I found myself in a position that required me to make a choice(pick a lane). I will always do whatever I can for them, even if it's on my own. However, I chose to pick a lane that resonated with my own soul. After a year and a half of contemplating it, I stepped away from the 501 world. It was heartbreaking for me. I am still trying to find my feet from that. Anyway, the more I learned, the less a part of that model I wanted to be part of. I want and do help people, but it's from my heart. It's not for notoriety nor for money. I help because I want to. I don't want to deal with a 3-ring circus, a constant battle or defending something that I am not privy to understand/know. I have gotten to know some really good people, but the 501 world is more than just a bunch of red tape, it's a world that really is allowed to break rules and not be held accountable...unless it's one made of people that are truly good. While I engrossed myself for 4 years, it no longer resonated with me.
As I said, I am a person who feels, sometimes too much. I have spent years learning and listening to my own instinct, body and intuition. It has taken me years to truly hear it and understand it. When I feel something, I feel it in my bones. I don't know any other way to explain it. To feel this deeply, means a lot of overwhelm and the past year plus has caused many migraines. I have visited with doctors, some say it is self-induced and others relate it back to my abilities. This type of "feeling" requires a lot of down time, and a lot of recovery time after being around a lot of people. Sadly, it's a built in bullshit detector. I know when I'm being lied to, I just know. I know when a story is "made up" and this tends to cause me to withdraw even more. It's difficult being a feeling person in a world that has become so cold. You quickly become emotionally drained. Mental and emotional exhaustion is off the charts. You have to learn to balance yourself, which I am still not good at. I feel guilty when I have to take time for me, when I want to just take off for days and not talk to or deal with anyone, and even finding hobbies requires a special blend of quiet and productivity.
After all I have learned, the idea of trust is another issue that comes into play. Sadly, I have had a few that played me for awhile. I really didn't see or feel an issue, at least initially. I can usually get a good grasp on people within minutes of meeting them. For a couple of years, I let down my guard. I had to learn the hard way to trust my gut, again. People are not always what they appear to be. I've come across some that outright use others, while others use them until they get what they want...then they no longer have a purpose for you. So, trust is something I have had to take back. I do not trust. I just don't. I keep everyone at arms length, to protect myself.
Christmas this year has truly devastated me. I love this holiday, it's my favorite. I love the beautiful decorations, the warmth and caring that is usually part of this time of year. This year, I started out excited! I was thrilled to have all 4 of my kids here, and I am still. However, the feelings overall, I am receiving is so negative. I know these are not my own. As I have shared a small piece of my thoughts on this on my social media, I'm finding so many that are feeling the same way. Some are not usually real festive, but others that are...are also feeling the negativity. For me, I'm doing everything I can to focus on the things and people I love. I have had to send prayers for negativity to dissolve and to be able find the joy again.
Thanks for getting this far. I truly am ready to see all truths come to light in a world that seems to have been upended. If you have family that you will be spending Christmas with, try to be mindful of those family members that seem to be disconnected or stray off alone from time to time. They may also be "feeling" too much. They may need that escape to rebalance themselves. If they need to leave early, understand that it is out of necessity not just because they don't want to be there.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Salli
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