Welcome December!!
The final 31 days of this year, and 25 days until Christmas! Even watching the calendar, it's a strange sensation to KNOW we are officially in the last month. I have been given the best possible gift already this year, my kids are all super excited for Christmas! Even my 15 year old is almost the most excited of all. She is honestly the reason for me to push myself to get into the spirit this year.
I have explained the spirit of Christmas to my kids for years. Meaning, it's not about the gifts(those are a bonus) but instead about the kindness, the time spent with loved ones, and having goodwill even when it's a challenge. We have never made the gifting about technology or big gifts, it's always been about a few useful gifts and a few fun gifts. It's been typically, someone different each year, that wakes up first...and then wakes up the rest of the house. Sometimes, that is at 3 am...other times, closer to 7. Santa sometimes, hasn't been gone more than an hour...so, that's fun. Especially, when he takes a 4 hour power nap...instead of just closing her eyes for a few minutes. It was always fun, when we had younger kids, that didn't sleep!
2024 has been an especially tough year for me. I have worked hard to start recovering my health, weight, and energy after a couple years of illnesses. I have had to accept that I put some pretty harsh and unrealistic expectations on myself...and I do not handle failure well. I've put faith in people and things that have let down those expectations too. It's been a major challenge to accept so many things that I can not change. As someone that tries to understand people, situations and choices...learning that my instinct is either way off, or things are more deceptive than imaginable...that has left me speechless. I refuse to dwell any longer on the crap from this year. I am one person, doing what I can, to make MY world a better place. That means loving those that are dear to me, letting go, changing the importance of some situations, and making peace a priority by any means necessary.
While I am feeling a little apprehensive, I am excited for all that December brings me and my family. I am looking forward to our gatherings, Christmas, my 50th birthday and New Year's Eve. There is a lot to do and finish right now, but I am not going to stress about any of it. I am focusing on what I can do, what I can change, and the direction I want to go. I'm starting the month on a hopeful platform.
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